As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?

08 August 2022 12:11

I'm trying to get back into the swing of posting without messing up my routine. I was finally going to bed at a decent time and not sleeping all day. Now I just have to fit posting on the blog and all the other social media stuff in the schedule. So, for all you guys that are sticking with me through this learning phase, I greatly appreciate you. I'm trying to do more than just post about my day, so I've come up with a few topics for you guys to get to know me a little better and for me to get to know all of you better.

As a child, I initially wanted to be a 2nd-grade Teacher. I had some great teachers in my life who helped me adjust to all the changes I was going through from being taken from my biological mother to the various foster homes I was placed in. I remember being in elementary school and I always wrote different first names on my papers when asked to write my name. I was in 5th grade. My teacher, we will call Mrs. S partially because I can't remember how to spell her name but mostly for privacy. I greatly appreciate her for not making a big deal about it. I was in my 4th foster home when I started doing this. I can't explain why I was doing this I would sometimes have a different name on each paper I had that day. I finally stopped when she talked to me and told me that my name was beautiful and that I didn't need to be anyone else. Honestly, she was one of the best teachers I ever had.

She made me feel that I was cared for, seen, and like everything about me mattered. Not that my foster parents were bad, and I felt they cared but after moving that many times in almost as many years it's hard. I remember also wearing my coat all the time no matter the weather and one day she asked me "why don't you take off your coat and stay awhile?" It wasn't in a negative way I think that was her way of saying that I was safe, and I didn't have to leave. As I've said before there are lots of things, I don't remember but I will never forget her and how she helped me. She was a big part of the reason I wanted to teach. After I was adopted and a little older the show almost everyone in my family watched was "Law and Order" and then I decided I wanted to be a Lawyer. Some of it had to do with the money you can make but also, I just loved legal shows and still do.

Even though I wanted to be a Lawyer I never stopped wanting to teach I just figured I'd make a lot of money than when I was older and had more patience I would teach. Of course, now I'm 35 so I don't think either of those dreams will come true but that's ok. I have found other ways to make my mark on the world and to help others. I think that could have been a big part of why I choose those careers. I just wanted to help people. I wanted to in some way give back for all the things I was given in my life. I love both of my biological parents, but I know without a shadow of a doubt I would not be the person I am if I had been with either of them. I will take all the good and bad I have gone through many times over to have what I have now in my life.

I know it's not perfect and I have struggled more times than I can count but that is just my life. I know it could have been worse so what can I truly complain about? Everything that happened after 18 was a product of my own choices. If I changed one thing, would I have the 4 most important people in my life? Would I be here now writing this blog? I don't believe it would have. Any change even as I'm looking back on them now could have made my life worse than where it is. Honestly, my current life isn't too bad. I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, and food in my stomach. I might not have everything I want but I have everything I need. All I can do is keep trying to better myself for my children.

Unapologetically,

K