Perpetual Procrastinator

13 April 2023 04:20

I am so anxious and can't sleep tonight again. I am just trying to work through so things on what I am doing with this website. It's about time for me to renew the web hosting and my main question at this point is to stay with Wix or get a different web host. I haven't really become profitable so the full weight of the costs is sitting on my shoulders. So as a single mother that isn't completely set in life has an effect on my household. I just don't want to give up the website and blog just yet. I don't wanna move because that would mean having to build a whole new site and every post I've made would be lost. I may just need to take a break get the funds together and then just buy the premium plan when I can. It's not like I have a lot of readers yet anyway.

That may be the best plan I can come up with I will still be able to write and once the site is back up people will be able to read it. Maybe if I had been keeping up with the blog I would be more well-known and possibly have some kind of income even if it's just from advertising. I really need to keep up with the writing and get caught up on current events. I don't have cable I just see what I see on my social media so I will have to start reading and watching the news online. Malice started helping me with the Discord server. I'm so behind the times I'm not even 100% sure what you even do on Discord. I need to do some research over the next few weeks so that I can implement it properly.

I don't want to put too much on my plate so I will get the DIscord going when I can and I will just work on the Youtube, TikTok, and blogging. I have a plan and luckily I am ahead of the curve with the gaming YouTube channel then when I get the video equipment for the blog channel those will be no problem since it is just basically living my life and doing the things I already do anyway it isn't really anything extra involved. I just need to keep my mental health up and just stay focused. We all have struggles but I started the blog to help me through that and I need to use it. I was feeling so much better and doing so much better. Then I just got overwhelmed with perfection and just putting too much on my plate but I really feel like I8 can make it work now. I know what I need to do and I'm going to do it.

Well, it's getting late and I have a lot to get done over the next few days so I better hit the hay so I can get up energized and motivated. This is what I get for procrastinating I don't know why I always do this to myself. It's like I love to live in chaos. No matter what I always put everything off until the last minute and stress myself out. I guess I have to give it to my older children because I wouldn't be able to get it done without them. My littles are asleep so I better join them, so they don't get up before me and turn my apartment into a disaster zone.

Unapologetically,

K