Feeling Productive

19 July 2022 21:41

Today hasn't been too bad I sleep until 18:30 then I went live on TikTok for a little bit while I cleaned the kitchen. I was going to start the rest of the common areas but I needed a little break because I kept getting lightheaded. I figured I haven't really been eating much so I better eat and then finish. I still haven't posted to Youtube yet but I'll probably do that after the kids are asleep. My house has been a train wreck for the last few months. I clean but I never finish. This bothers me but I've been in a little bit of depression. I was taking my meds but IDK I just stopped and once I did that everything went back to horrible.

So I'm going to start back on them tomorrow and go from there. I really need to get my mental health back in check. So starting today I will clean little by little until it's all done. I think because there is so much mess I get overwhelmed so I stop then the kids make even more mess then I'm just constantly recleaning the same areas so I never finish. I'm not gonna judge anyone because I know we all go through things so if your house isn't always perfect or you can't find the motivation to even get out of bed that's ok. Just keep trying don't let a dark time completely rob you of living your life. Take that break or breakdown if you need to then when you are done pick yourself back up so you can live your life as the best you as possible.

I know we all handle trauma, setbacks, and negativity differently but every one of our lives is worth living. We were born into the world and have something we bring that makes it a better place. We just have to continually make a choice to live and share those our gifts. I'm a helper and a listener so I'm the person that you can depend on to be there for you and listen when you need to vent. That is my gift I'm here on this blog trying to do what I can do. Well time to get back to being productive while I have the motivation.

Unapologetically,

K