Give me a break

20 July 2022 03:22

I'm having a rough time today with these kids. I posted earlier about being productive but I didn't get as far as I wanted to. I know that I chose to have these kids but I wish I had more time for myself. It's not all the kids it's mostly just Buddy. I need to make some videos for Youtube and TikTok so I figured I would wait until the kids were sleeping. Since the videos weren't about them and I didn't want all the noise in the background. Of course, it's now after 3 in the morning and the baby still isn't sleeping. My goal was to get to bed earlier so I tried to put them to bed then make my videos then have a few moments of quiet time for myself. I am very irritated because I just need a few minutes and he is just crying and won't go to sleep. I stopped smoking but he is making me wish I still did so that for just those few minutes I would be alone and have some quiet. Plus I feel like I make a promise to the followers and readers that they would get new content every day and I haven't followed through on that. I only said 1 post a day which should be easy considering I only really need to post in 3 places. Since anything I post to TikTok, I can share it on my other social media sites. Then I make a post a day here and a video a day for Youtube. But I'm not doing what I said on Youtube. I better make the best of the few minutes of quiet since he seems to have dosed off.

Unapologetically,

K