RUOK??? Life before Foster Care

27 July 2022 22:05

Ok so I was going to write some more of my adoption story but I just couldn't. I'm not sure if I should just post the first part and then do the second at a later time but I don't wanna just leave the story posted on a negative. Plus I think I just need to mentally prepare myself a little more since I've been getting more views which means I won't just be sharing with a low chance of negative reactions. Maybe I'll just give it a day and then see how I feel. That wasn't the topic of this post. I started this post to talk about how crazy all of this is to be trying to build this site and grow a community. Like I'm constantly posting on everything to try to get the word out about this site. I forgot I even made a Patreon page, I haven't made a real YouTube video in days, and then when it comes to anything besides TikTok they barely get posts.

I don't want to be redundant in the posts so unless I can come up with at least 7 different content ideas a day some of it is going to be a repeat of something I already posted somewhere. I haven't put paid subscriptions on this site yet but I have them on Patreon so that's a little difficult for me to get right with because basically if they just subscribe or go here they would be getting all the same content for free. Again I'm kind of on a tangent I don't see how people do this to promote themselves. I told Aria I feel like I'm working a full-time job. Like people say blogging is a hobby and I'm like where??? Maybe I just set myself up for too much trying to post everywhere every single day. I want the Youtube channel to start getting more views, but not having the proper equipment is kind of hindering me from that.

Soon enough I will get that together though. I'm just so indecisive that I can't settle on what is the best thing to use. I know budget plays a role but I also don't want to have to get spending money upgrading when I could just save and get the top-tier products. I think I'm going to be replanning how to handle all of this. I'm hoping that by having people I know to contribute their stories on some of the platforms so I won't be constantly talking about nothing. I do have a few ideas for content that people might find more interesting than my never-ending woe is me posts. I don't mean to come off that way.

I know this is a blog and I should talk about more than myself but to me, it is also just like a diary and I just happen to be posting mine online for everyone to see. I don't have too much longer before my training is over and then I will have more time to look into content more geared towards educational things. When I say educational I mean well maybe I should say informative.

28 July 2022 21:54

I just don't have enough time in the day now to even look at my phone. I started this post last night and fell straight to sleep while writing it. I don't like holding back posts. I did want to try to write more of my adoption story, but I'm already tired so I figured I'd finish this and then possibly start another post. I'm still really not too amped up to post the adoption stories much less finish writing them. I'm very upset about being kept so late for training. I didn't get home until about an hour ago and I have to be up probably around 5:00. That right there is the reason I'm constantly falling asleep while I'm writing. I'm trying to make these posts longer so that there aren't so many. I just think it's gonna be what it's gonna be. I don't want long rambling posts that go on forever and don't say anything new. Well like I said I'm exhausted so I'll lay here and see if anything comes to me if not I'll hopefully be ready to finish the posts I have in the drafts.

Unapologetically,

K